Hey, if you feel like you want to end your life, if you feel like no one will care, listen to the song "How Could You Leave Us," by NF. It's the story of a guy who's mother killed herself and years later he still blames himself.
'I'm drowning and you're standing three feet away screaming "learn how to swim! - this is how being depressive must feel like. Horrible feeling for the screaming person as well - I know what I'm talking about.