I've fallen sick and no one is near today. I should not complain and go through this suffering quietly, like I'm doing. No one even cares about me anymore, I pushed everything dear to me away from myself. God you're the only one left and I'm going to push you away too. I will settle only for her because she is my everything. I can be anything when she's with me and I'm feeling nothing without her now. I'm sorry but I don't want you God, I need her.